On "E"

slouching with a deathly lean at this computer...only drooping lids available to catch my thoughts...
I'm on "E"
My mind, soul, and body are all DRAINED from recent events.
I'm on "E"
smh...see...you'd never understand "E" if you've never tried.
It is Elegant, Elaborate, and even Exercised.
It is pushed and pulled, torn and tattered.
It is a representation of someone who sometimes didn't think she mattered.
I'm on "E"
inEvitable is "E" with an Entity of fear.
More concerned with the past that the future that is near.
More afraid of the present because there's no more time left to learn it.
More confused about the future when the destiny is far from earned yet.
I'm on "E"
....
but so are YOU
See...you glance from your screens and catch a glimpse of rEality.
You read the words and hear the verbs of a hidden life of fatalities.
Giggle hear. Laugh. Lest ye cheer
for the stumble you'd assume taken
But alas my dear. Step aside. Stand clear.
Let a stumble versus a fall not be mistaken.
You're so all on "E"
Let's break this down a bit.
Simplify the letter.
You're on "E"
yet "E" is ME
A woman simply striving to do better.
A woman with self-assigned duties
I've walked a path full of bridges-
some dangerous and others now burned
I've lived the life of a junkie who always seemed to yearn
until I got on "E"
I found myself engulfed in books.
My knees weakened at the altar
Shield the world's dirty looks
Felt a sharp shooting fear that made me run faster
but
I was on "E"
...
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"E"
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"E"
everything I wished for, everything I envisioned
everything I hope and prayed and set first on my mission
...
seems to be on "E", or missing
In hindsight, I shouldn't really look back
because therein lies my spine
my support
by which I stand
that constructs this wonderful being that is I
....sigh....
but I'm on "E"
Drained by my secrets, torn apart by lies
confused by the daggers that are thrown through one's eyes
no room for lonely cries
no time for asking why
JUST TIME TO STEP ASIDE
take a look at "E"
that's why I'm on it....